Home Is Where You Are Loved The Most And Act The Worst.

home, love, quote

How true is this? I haven’t heard this quote like this before but it makes so much sense to me. One would think that at home, where you are most loved, most respected, most welcome, you’d be your best too. But you aren’t because you are also most comfortable there, most relaxed. You know that at home love is strong and your family loves you for who you are. With all the good and all the bad you have to offer. You know that when you have a bad day, they may be upset, but you’ll be forgiven. You have trust and faith in your family that they can handle you and Continue reading “Home Is Where You Are Loved The Most And Act The Worst.”

Change is the end result of all true learning.

“Change is the end result of all true learning.”
― Leo Buscaglia

quote by c.s. lewis
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Isn’t that the truth? What a beautiful quote and great start to my week, and hopefully yours. Change is one of those things one loves and hates at the same time. I for one, usually have a tougher time with change than most. I like my set schedule, my routine, knowing what comes tomorrow. Lately I have been thinking about it though. Is that smart? Or do I just live my life without actually living it. It’s like a well oiled machine, it functions and runs but to what end? Where is it taking me, or rather, where am I taking myself? What have I done so far in this life and what do I really want to achieve? A friend asked me some tough questions Friday night. When you wake up in the morning, what’s the first thing that brings you into thought? When you go to sleep, what are you pondering? When you wake up in the middle of the night and can’t go back to sleep, what do you do? What would you do for free just so you could do it because you have an burning urge to do it but you can’t say why? What is that?

I thought I’d have to think on that for a while, but to my surprise the answers came fast. 3 total and yes, they include photography and children. I am not ready to disclose those 3 thoughts just yet, but I wanted to share the questions. I learn a little bit from every person I meet. I think everyone should learn something from every person they meet. Learning doesn’t just have to be positive either. Think about it. Friday night, I learned a little bit about myself. Who am I kidding. A lot. It was there all along but it took questions and a conversation to put it in perspective. Sometimes those revelations are just plain scary. I learned, now I am changed. Changed inside, but stuck in an external rut. Now that needs to change. To me, that’s hard. With every change and self discovery, there are more questions:

How? When? What? With Who? Alone? Together? Time? Smart? Silly? And so on.

I am lucky to have a very supportive husband. He lets me talk about my thoughts for hours, listens to my different ideas, my back and forth as I struggle to decide, my ups and downs with my passionate heart and then he offers feedback. You see, he is the realistic one, the grounded one. I am an INFJ – which means I am very intuitive and feeling, where as he is an INTJ – a thinker above all, a strategist. Don’t mistake me for a head in the clouds kind of gal though, you couldn’t be further from the truth.

But talking and having feedback from a thinker, emotions set aside is invaluable. Especially for someone like me, who is on a mission to never stop learning. Yes, I’ve realized that when you never stop true learning, then you will always have to change. You have to evolve, grow and start again. I am happy though, as much as I don’t like change, I need it. We need it. It stops us from becoming complacent, from becoming a machine that runs at the same speed, day in and day out. It forces us to reevaluate ourselves, our surroundings, our life. It forces us to adapt and challenges us by taking away the comfort we now. Once you know something will make you a better person, or a worse, you can’t “unknow” it. You are faced with a choice, will you live on with the knowledge and not change, or will you take that knowledge and change?

Most things don’t change overnight. Change takes time. It’s an ongoing process, hopefully with the goal of becoming a better and happier person.

 

How to Win Friends and Influence People

How to Win Friends and Influence People by Dale Carnegie

TogetherIt’s been a long long time since I have read this book. I’ve seen it pop up more than once recently and I think it’s great. If you are in need of a book that will change your life and the way you see the world this is for you. There is a joke that I am the cranky German, especially before Continue reading “How to Win Friends and Influence People”

Alice Herz-Sommer – The Lady in Number 6

A Story about Survival, Love, Passion and Music

Alice Herz-Sommer a concentration camp survivor at 106 full of life
Alice Herz-Sommer

I hope you have tissues ready. I really do. I found this video a while back and have been watching it repeatedly for the last week. Growing up in Germany, you learn about the war, the concentrations camps, you read books, you discuss, you learn, you visit concentration camps, you watch videos, you learn the smell of death – because it still lingers, you can feel death and despair, you learn how heavy these places feel. But you can never truly know what it’s like. You can only imagine. You’ll never truly understand as a kid, I didn’t. I knew it was horrible, I felt horrible, I didn’t understand why. But watching Alice, now that I am a grown up, I am moved by her story, it put everything in perspective. It changed the way I perceived what happened.

Unfortunately the world lost a wonderful and inspiring lady who lived to be Continue reading “Alice Herz-Sommer – The Lady in Number 6”

The Legacy I’ll Leave My Children

My LegacyIt was my daughters 11th birthday last Saturday and it didn’t hit me until today, when I read a post about leaving your legacy by the lovely ladies from Ask Ajna, how fast time has gone by. It feels like it was yesterday (yes, so much cliché) when I found out I was pregnant, gave birth 9 months later and even when she took her first steps. While it feels like yesterday, it has been 11 years and in those 11 years we have been through ups and downs in life. We have moved more than once and across continents too! We have been through deployments, divorce and the mental illness of family members. We have been through thick and thin and today it hit me. We are past half of her childhood and I feel like I missed most of it.

She is a gifted child, is in the gifted program at school and tested Continue reading “The Legacy I’ll Leave My Children”

Beautiful Instruments Play Notes Right to the Heart

This beauty was used to play Ave Maria at the last wedding I was fortunate enough to photograph. A single instrument and wonderful person was all it took to silence a whole church initially. Within a minute most (including myself) had tears in their eyes.

Music speaks to the soul, it makes you feel more than words ever could.

Instrument

Why I want to take Laser Pegs Camping

I am a huge fan of Laser Pegs, my kids each have sets and love them dearly. They have been great educational toys for my special needs child in terms of lp19 Continue reading “Why I want to take Laser Pegs Camping”